You would think

You would think after them being 10 weeks old I would have a pretty good grasp on things... WRONG! I think with all babies in the first few months once you get used to something think oh okay I can do this I have it down they throw you a curve ball and flip the script on you. Leaving you just as confused as day one sometimes. Lucky for us while my husband is in Iraq we're staying with my parents. It always help to have your mom around. Some times she's just as confused as me and if not as tired or even more exhausted. The first two months your like a robot feed them change them sleep when they do. I really think most days i forgot to eat. Now we are at the point were they will smile at your and try to laugh. So thier little personalities are forming. Through the blurred vision of a sleep deprived mommy seeing their baby actually smile, not a gassy smile a real is the most precious thing in the world. But i still find my self thinking when will i have some kind of structure or just a tiny bit of my sanity back. In my head i've chalked it up to never. Its just going to be one big crazy hectic life. And those of you who are wondering. In a few years I would love to have another..................maybe it changes each day :)