Realizations.

Things I've realized since kids and deployment.

Two things that MAKE you grow up. First I've realized my husband is my truest best friend, I mean I have best friends but he's my absolute complete rock. Deployments show you the person you can be. No matter how much I miss him or wish like hell every time my daughters do something new that he was here. I cant go to bed, sit there and cry all day. I put on a smile keep going. I've learned to enjoy little things, never again will I take for granted a four day weekend of watching COD. :D You meet awesome people and wives who you become close with quick. shout outs to Tara P.(my nice twin)! because most of your other friends and family have no idea. P&E gave me a whole new view on life. Small stuff doesnt matter. The people you surround your self with do. There isnt any need for a lot of friends just true friends and honestly all the ones who dont matter weed them selves out anyways. I've found a new appreciation for my mama. Even tho she doesnt think i do i really really do appreciate her. She handles me even when i am cranky and impossible. Since having twins I've come to the realization sleep is a luxury and so is a nice long shower and eating a hot meal or a meal at all. My daughters amaze me daily. They say when you have a child its like having your heart walk outside your body. Couldnt be anymore true they are everything to me, I would give up anything for them and their safety and happiness. I could make this entry go on foreverr. Long story short in the last 6 months I've realized more about my self then I have in my whole 20 year of existence.